Life is never easy.
We all experience trials and tribulations that make us stop and wonder
If we are on the right path, doing the right thing, with the right partner.
And sometimes we let these tribulations cast us off into the wrong direction
Doing things we would never have done, would never have been, in search of perfection.
So I sit here and wonder
How could I let this fantasy become reality
When all the while it should have stayed just that; a curiosity.
I should never have let this distraction become any fraction of my life
It’s become an infatuation that I just cannot seem to shake.
I sit here and I realise the surprise I’m feeling that everything I need is before my eyes
And I rise to the fact that all of these obstacles thrown in my way
I can overcome.
So fuck you distraction, you were never part of my plan anyway.
In my dreams
In the shadows
In the back of my mind
You are there every minute of every hour of every day
In my thoughts
In my soul
In the depths of my heart
You will always be the one that’ll stay.
Despite our distance
And after all this time
I cannot seem to shake you
From any part my mind
To you it must now be just a phase
A mistake you made
Not a memory but
Emotion filled with hate
I’d rather it was that
Then just an empty feeling
As though we were nothing
And I am the only one not healing
From the greatest love I’ve ever known
From the greatest man I’ve never owned
And no matter what I try to do
I cannot seem to shake the thought of you
I hope you are truly happy
I hope you are following your dreams
I wish nothing but the best for you
I wish it had been me
And if our paths never cross
Throughout the rest of our lives
Please know that I’m sorry
And I’ll love you for a lifetime.
Pretending to be your call girl one night,
I come around looking just right.
To your front door in my spike heeled boots,
Anxious to see if the outfit suits.
Tripping towards the window chair,
Cars driving by catch a stare
At you parting my thighs wide with your knees,
Me arching my back with a need to please.
Down before you then you drop,
All hurriedness seems to stop.
On my mouth there forms a grin,
Begging you to come within.
My senses alive as you lick with leisure,
A cone full of your favourite flavour.
My fingers used to stir the flow,
Knowing you like watching the show.
And into your mouth is offered a taste,
Not one drop let go to waste.
Whispering ‘tell me what you need’,
No more time for play I plead.
I will do anything you ask,
Fulfilling your fantasy my only task.
On your feet then you rise,
Hard already to my surprise.
I take your heat deep in my mouth,
Hear you moan aloud and proud.
You hold my head as I go deep,
Your juices stirring, you start to leak.
Laying back I plead without words,
My hidden lips can now be heard.
I plead, enter me with no hesitation.
You stand firm with no reservations.
Penetrate me with your pride,
With full force you thrust deep inside.
Don’t stop I shout and scream,
A smile, you know im at your mercy.
I push you back and climb up high,
Your favourite place between my thighs.
I ride you hard, look at your face,
Tell me your almost in heaven’s place.
Panting hard I start to orgasm,
Letting go with that wild expression.
I feel you grow and stretch me tight,
Realease your heat with much delight.
We both moan and reach our peeks,
If we close our eyes we both could be
Sipping on my glass of wine
We make eye contact over the rim
I feel that feeling wash over me
A passion that stirs from within
An intoxicated mind, a heated body
The combination of my growing desire
I sit next to you knowing you want the same
Between us is undeniable fire
A kiss on my neck, my eyes start to close
And with it I feel myself tighten
Your hand on my leg, gently stroking towards
A place where the pleasure is heightened
Parting my legs I can see in your eyes
Your surprise to find nothing between
Your fingers, my flower and I gasp with pleasure
As you dip slowly into the cream
When was the last time you held me
To make me feel safe
When was the last time you kissed me
Like I’m the only girl in the world
When was the last time you told me I’m beautiful
Just because you thought it so
When was the last time we said I love you
I can’t even remember though….
Huge voids in a relationship that feels so stale
Like we’re brother and sister or just a couple of pals
No conversation no laughs no special times
Our only glue being the children, yours and mine
Hoping for countless years that you’ll treat me like a princess
How I deserve to be, that’s priceless
It never came and more often than not I feel worthless
You must feel the same because I pay you no attention
You can’t be happy going another day in this detention
I love you, you are the father of my children
But I wonder what we’d have become without them
I want real love. Ridiculous, consuming, inconvenient, can’t live without each other kind of love. I want magic.
I realise that’s not the man that you are but the woman I’ve grown up to be can’t accept anything less.
I am here
Down before you on my knees
I am yours
To do with what you please
I am open
My legs that hide my burning fire
I am ready
To fulfil your dreams, your desires
I am offering
My flower, sweet as nectar
I am giving
My mind body and soul